The state of blankdom is the state i occupy the most these days.... i can spent hours staring at a single object and to outsiders it may occur that i am either dreaming or thinking something serious or am desp but all i am doing is being blank......it has been good so long but now things are getting slightly out of control......exams are approaching and no sooner than i open my book blankdom settles in.....my father said that being able to be blank is a great asset...only two kinds of people could do that ....1.extremely intelligent ones....just as i was about to fly sky high he added 2. extremely stupid ones like you.....
this state has become my constant companion....it is my way of entertainment during class hours.....i ll be staring at the teachers face with periodic rhythmic motions of the head to indicate that i am grasping everything while my thoughts will be tuned to some other frequency..... it has also become my best defense option...when someone tells me something i dont want to hear i turn off, when i am angry i turn off...things got to such an extent that for a few days i was turned off completely....giving slow replies,staring at familiar faces as if i dont recognise and not acknowledging the presence of people in the same room as me....my cousins attribute it to insanity but i think i am still on the right side of sanity......
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Worries
I have been deeply worried for the past few days.....the mini project submission is due on wenesday and we are still on square one.....and the guy we trusted our pcb fabrication with has succeeded in nothing save teaching me some facts:
1. i hate cheats
2. i am not fit to run a business
3. being polite is not always good....
4. i am very silly...i get worried over anything and everything
after running aournd for over a week we are still where we started.....and my spirits are at an all time low.....yes i have only this small worry in this world (gud enuf)....but it is getting to my nerves....
the guy at zoom (whom we now call fraud) doesnt believe our circuit will work...but he took a week to realise that....and one day from submission he tells us confidently that it aint gonna work.....
:-(
1. i hate cheats
2. i am not fit to run a business
3. being polite is not always good....
4. i am very silly...i get worried over anything and everything
after running aournd for over a week we are still where we started.....and my spirits are at an all time low.....yes i have only this small worry in this world (gud enuf)....but it is getting to my nerves....
the guy at zoom (whom we now call fraud) doesnt believe our circuit will work...but he took a week to realise that....and one day from submission he tells us confidently that it aint gonna work.....
:-(
Saturday, May 9, 2009
rhyme: The Ideal Guy
yet another attempt at an unsadistic poem.
his eyes as dark as his dark brown hair
with a voice so sweet and a face so fair
with a guarded poise and his head held high
with a catch in his voice and a twinkle in his eye
who is well read, a man of the world
wise as his years and true to his word
ever so pleasant ,ready with a smile
with looks unique, has his own style
who can talk easy,with a tinge of fun
thats the guy i wish to have won.
his eyes as dark as his dark brown hair
with a voice so sweet and a face so fair
with a guarded poise and his head held high
with a catch in his voice and a twinkle in his eye
who is well read, a man of the world
wise as his years and true to his word
ever so pleasant ,ready with a smile
with looks unique, has his own style
who can talk easy,with a tinge of fun
thats the guy i wish to have won.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
RHYME: Glimpses
In memory of a train journey.
Fleeting glimpses of greenish hue,
in the misty cold of the morning haze.
thousand suns sparkle from deadened dew,
wherever my eyes could gaze.
lush green lands spring up new,
as we move in a dream like maze.
in search of prey the first birds flew,
in the sky set afire by the morning blaze.
rustling the leaves ,the cool breeze blew,
while in pastures cows happily graze.
sheets of water in sparkling blue,
lay in calm and true solace.
neither the gusty winds nor the noisy few,
nor the slight drizzle could me unfaze.
to each glimpse i bid adieu,
as the landscape and me are parting ways!
Fleeting glimpses of greenish hue,
in the misty cold of the morning haze.
thousand suns sparkle from deadened dew,
wherever my eyes could gaze.
lush green lands spring up new,
as we move in a dream like maze.
in search of prey the first birds flew,
in the sky set afire by the morning blaze.
rustling the leaves ,the cool breeze blew,
while in pastures cows happily graze.
sheets of water in sparkling blue,
lay in calm and true solace.
neither the gusty winds nor the noisy few,
nor the slight drizzle could me unfaze.
to each glimpse i bid adieu,
as the landscape and me are parting ways!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Epilogue
Once you leave the third world your space further expands and you enter the fifth dimension ...the dimension of thought...here you are not only confined in the axes of space and time but also on thought....as you move into further worlds your space expands further and further until you get absorbed into the energy that makes up the universe.
Friday, May 1, 2009
chapte 5:
now things were getting slightly clear......
so i was in this new world where i live till the next guy turns up ... so i am not dead but i am just on a journey......a journey through worlds ...a journey through time ...
but muck as i like not being dead i would have liked the old notion better.to lie in my grave and see myself becoming part of the dirt....being eternally etched into the world..i wuld like to have roamed around the world as a spirit...so that i could atleast be the winds that brush past the face osf my loved ones...
so, i have cleared whatever wrong notions i have previously given...this is death .whether you like it or not....and i got to be going...i have a whole life to live out .....
so i was in this new world where i live till the next guy turns up ... so i am not dead but i am just on a journey......a journey through worlds ...a journey through time ...
but muck as i like not being dead i would have liked the old notion better.to lie in my grave and see myself becoming part of the dirt....being eternally etched into the world..i wuld like to have roamed around the world as a spirit...so that i could atleast be the winds that brush past the face osf my loved ones...
so, i have cleared whatever wrong notions i have previously given...this is death .whether you like it or not....and i got to be going...i have a whole life to live out .....
chapter 4:
" ok. so what happens to me now....and where is God?'
he actually laughed out at my final question
"just another wrong concept of yours...what you call god in your world is just the you in the higher world...in that sense i am your god"
"to go on....you can stay in this world until the guy from your older world dies and turns up here. you take my space.. i am going"
"where"
" i dont know .just like you didnt know where you were going after you died i dont know where my next space lies....."
where exactly is this world?why hasnt it shown in our space searches..or is it that far out in the universe?'
"much farther than you can think!"
" if i travel at the speed of light....even then i cant reach it...( i couldnt help showing off my prowess in science.this guy knew a little too much!)'
"the speed of light is too slow....you have to travel at the speed of thought to get there....you see this world is in the same place as yours ...but in another time sphere....so infact it is close by in temrs of space but far apart in terms of time!"
he actually laughed out at my final question
"just another wrong concept of yours...what you call god in your world is just the you in the higher world...in that sense i am your god"
"to go on....you can stay in this world until the guy from your older world dies and turns up here. you take my space.. i am going"
"where"
" i dont know .just like you didnt know where you were going after you died i dont know where my next space lies....."
where exactly is this world?why hasnt it shown in our space searches..or is it that far out in the universe?'
"much farther than you can think!"
" if i travel at the speed of light....even then i cant reach it...( i couldnt help showing off my prowess in science.this guy knew a little too much!)'
"the speed of light is too slow....you have to travel at the speed of thought to get there....you see this world is in the same place as yours ...but in another time sphere....so infact it is close by in temrs of space but far apart in terms of time!"
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